Anger

Anger is a dangerous thing... Tonight me a self-proclaimed pacifist acted out in anger toward another, acted out in unprovoked anger toward a close friend, and the worst part of it all was that I tried to justify it to myself. self-deception is a powerful thing, it is truly the most vile and wrecked of things, it is taking the power of judgment which is strictly reserved for the divine into my own hands, attempting to do God's job better than God. Have you ever got angry, I mean so angry that you actually broke something or hurt someone you loved, anger is a dangerous emotion, it makes us act sub-human. After my outburst I layed on the floor for a while reveling in my complete idiocracy, and for a second I nearly felt sorry for myself, but this was a mess that I had gotten myself into, not a justified outburst of anger, Jesus got angry, but he used is anger to heal not to destroy, like when the Pharisees ask Jesus about breaking the sabbath and instead of getting irritated be heals a man, which was completely the opposite of what I had just done, I used my anger for me, to get even, me an individual who has the words 'peace', 'truth', and 'justice' engraved on my own forearm, discounted this call upon my life and acted like a complete and utter idiot. Anger is a dangerous thing... anger leads to shame and shame is another dangerous thing, for it transforms our focus again from those we have wronged to ourselves.

Lord, may the anger that consumes me be used to heal this world not to add to the violence and oppression, the injustice and the selfishness that so consumes not just my soul but the world, Lord I not worthy of your hearing but have mercy on me a sinner...